Get Love or Get Hurt?

Wat the incident had been made me scared or feel hopeless to get a new relationship v the girl I like indeed?

I had tried to overcome it,but seems like useless...I duno wat can i do.....

Actually,I had meet a lot of girls tat I crush on them,but x 1 can to be my girl fren,Y?

Hey.dun say tat i'm a gay ah,i'm absolutely a normal guy,bcz i love girl very much.hahaha=p

Every time i getting close v a girl i'll start to think a lot,i'll think tat is it I got the qualification to get pair v her n even I'll stop or pull back my step to get closer v them?At tis point had showed tat i'm do not confident to myself.Yes,I admitted tat I'm x confident to myself actually,tat is cum frm my family problem.Is it an excuse?I duno....sum1 can tell me?

Another problem frm me is 'flower hearted'.I can like few girls in the same time n I'll try to knw them communicate v them n get closer v them to c which 1 is more suitable,care me,sweet n important 4 me.

Actually I found her recently,but I x yet to ask her to be my love 1,mean girl fren la,paiseh to say out tis word.haha.Actually I juz wan a little bit time more to confirm tat whether I'm love her anot,bcz I dun wan any hurt or disappointment appear in half way we love n get sweet v each other.

She is a good girl tat I nvr meet b4,she is caring,thoughtful,willing sacrifice for me,honest to me n alwaz made me laugh at the time I b v her.But sometime she like to emo,like to say sumthing to against me,tat seeing cute.haha.

At here I would like to let her knw,once I choose a girl to be my girlfren,I'll forget other girls tat I had crush on b4 n fully pay my love to her.

Dun be scare tat I'll be 'flower hearted' again^^I promise to u~I'll never hurt u again,actually sumtime I purposely said sumthing tat u x like to hear,i jz wan to test u,c how much u like or love me.hehe=p.Now I know already n I feel touching v all the things u had did for me.

Love you~