Life?what is life?

Who creates life n world?

This is a confuse question.Y we must appear in tis ugly n 'fluctuating' world?

Sometime happy till flied high to the paradise,sometime suffer in sad or nervous till fallen to hell.

Is it hell is better than world?If life in hell,we just keep suffering n always on the bottom,unlike the 'fluctuating' mode in world much more suffer than hell.

If I were a tiny dust,I can stay at a place for long time in silent mode,x brain,x movement,x desire,x true or false,x stigma,x happy,x friends,x family n x life....

Once we did wrong,we cannot turn back,we just can go ahead to the deep whole that full v brambles,get stab by it but cant die...

Everytime go out I feel tat everyone is using a 'special' sight on me.Because I did many wrong things...Is it can be better soon?NO.once we did wrong,we will nvr back to the origin...

What to do next?wait,wait for a new life,suffer again,new life,suffer again.it will repeat n repeat...in a circulation....n never stop....

These few days feel damn hot,every seconds is sweating,sweating n sweating.smelly~

hope all my frens can take good care of urself,drink more water n stay away frm the fierce sunshine la^^

Jz finiz frm reading hoeng's blog jznw...sry la hoeng,i'm x purposely 1,i owe u la,10 pieces of roti kosong is enof to compensate u?haha=p

Being in rat race recently,never mind,I tell myself these all I can go through,I hope I can use my young time to burn both end of candle to achieve my dreams.

This coming saturday is Kepong Open tournament,hope I can fight well and get medal,good luck to myself n my brothers yong loong n mun seng!taekwondo spirit!let tis saturday to show our spirit!but before tat,we need to prepare well 1st,x eat spicy food,x drink cold drinks,x late sleep,eat well,x starving,n...haha.rmb go jogging to keep ur stamina la.

MBW~

Life is getting more complicated?

Answer:Stongly agreed

Am I too childish?I think so...

Y i said so?Because I'm hope I can good v everyone in the world,does it come true?I did it laz time bt it gone worse nw.Wat caused it?Why?.....

I oso duno...

Recently I'm live in anxious n scare,I need to knw the truth....

Nvm.is ok,jz let the time to prove everything.

There is a cloudy nite ytd,after stop raining,i asked for the buddies whether they still wan to on the plan tat we made-play basketball at nite.hahaI start to addict it so much.

Still the same rule,if x miss ball,then need to punished to do variety exercises such as,pumping,sit-up n so on,tat is indirectly to train us b more strong.haha.

After sweating crazy,we jz sit on floor n start our stories,kai jian,me,ho eng n wooi kuan,chatting over day,till 1am oly stop by hoeng,bcz tdy morning we need to wake up earlier n go for skul.

I like play basketball at the nite.nice!^^

My dear bro,how many years v being in same team?How many pain,sad,happy v have 2gather?If x mistaken,more than 5 years ba.I feel sad when u say like tat.What shame?wat fake?i tel u truly.evy1 is a faker,jz depend on how they b,either good or bad.Me also b fake b4,bt i also have my true time.Fake ornot is onueself,x one can comment ur personality without thinking themself.I hope u jz let it passes through,v still hv long way to go.Rmb me mseng,eng white support u alwaz.Believe us,v love u as bro,but can u pls love urself n love us?Nvr sorry 2 us,bro need is suppot.Rmb,nvr give up our dream.......

This is my bro sent to me ytd when i'm in dump.

When i view it,my tears is uncontrollable to fall out,I really touched of it.

I'm proud n happy to meet u all guys.U all is my bro,u all is my spirit,u all is my rainbow,without u all,my life is dull.

Thx bro.love u all.^^

Finally finiz test.

Think tat my brain is corrupted d,cant memorize things well.haiz.

I wan to let my parents disappointed again,I hope I can alwaz make them to feel proud to have me as their son.

I try to make everythings perfect,bt in the end is the worst.

WHY?

Is it I too stupid d?how to b more intelligent?

I fed up to my life nw.

Nothing tat I can do nicely.

In family,I alwaz made problems to them:

1)Cant ligthen their financially problem,made my mom need to work those hard work everyday,cycling to work everyday even sumtime is raining,need carry heavy things,need c people 'face color' n so on...........

2)Alwaz let my mom to worry me because of my late back home,I alwaz forget to tell them tat I'll b late n ask them x need to worry about me.

3)They r alwaz worry about my result,they worry tat I cant pass STPM n get into local university for further study.

I had try my best?

I think I x yet to do my best....

I alwaz ask myself:''Y other can done sumthing very well,but I cant even do it better?or consider as bad......

I need to change,change to b more hardworking,to achieve wat I wan,

Hope I can do tat n never let my Family disappointed anymore.

Finally back to blog here.

Alot of things is kept inside my heart these few days,is it the suitable way to release all at here?

Answer is NO.hahaha=p

I juz can share sum to u all oly.

First of all,still x happy tat I lost few frens,y?Y everythings cum so suddenly?1 demo,1 ppl will gave such a huge impact to me.I'm surrender.

I think tat's due to wat I done,also wat's my problem recently:

1)Stupid mind tat duno how to lead a demo team

2)Curiosity tat made me made wrong decision

3)Low self control tat made me hurt sum 1

4)not responsibility tat made every1 x believe me

5)Not a gud son tat cant share my mom's burden

6)Not enof hardworking tat made me cram at last minute for test.

7)Cant settle my financially pro n need money frm my mom,shame till die!

8)Sweetheart?nice to hear,bt is it cum frm a sincere heart or jz a simple call tat cum frm a meaningless mind?

Haha.Never mind.is ok,as long as I x hurt anyone more.

Hurt myself is better than hurt others~

Or is it the best way is I disappear frm tis complicated world?

Then I'll x hurt any1 else.

almost cry out,too spicy d.

Do u knw wat is spicy?Did u try tat sumthing can make u crying out,sweating,feel vomit n stomach burning?I tried such hell thing during ytd birthday celebration.Tat was a BIG present for meT_T.

Well,nw i'm talking about laz nite me,kai jian n bird's birthday celebration on gasonline,metroprima n Desa park city.

I'm a bit late to meet them at gasonline due to tkd claz.No money d ma,so need earn money by teach claz lo.hahaha.During claz,there was raining cat n dog,bt fortunately it 'calm down' to drizzling oly when I cycling to back home.There was a bit rush 4 me to cycling back to home,bath,change cloths n style my hair in 30 mins,maybe is I slow.haha.

After I finiz prepare everythings,i go down frm my home n wait yee wen cum pick me up to gasonline meet our classmates,a bit late bcz of traffic jam.haha.sry to all my classmates n hoeng bcz let u all to wait me so long time.

When me n yee wen reach there,the 1st person we meet is ken boon,then we go find them.Once I meet them,tat Willie boss gif me the super spicy hot dog n challenge me to finiz it,jz half oly,depend on my 'BRAVE' personality sure i accept the challenge la.

Tat is nth when i chewing it,bt after i swallow inside to my stomach,the spicyness start to torment me.1st it start frm the throat to oral cavity n final spread to my stomach,it bring me to sweating,tear watering my eyes,a lot of saliva release,stomach burning n feel wan to vomit.

Wakao.tat is the moz spicy food tat I never try b4.X any bluff frm me,tat is truth!

After ate,we all took many pictures at gasonline.after tat all guys planning to go desa park city n all the girls back home.Starting I'm feel weird to go there v all 'ma lat lou',hahaha.but quite funny.haha.

Some unhappy incident was happened on the way tat we going to DPC.

1st,hoeng as a lead,he drove too fast n without signal made birg n kai jian cannot follow up.

We jz stop aside to wait them cum back.

After they cum back n going ahead to DPC,there was another incident or oso accident happened,tat is kai jian accidently crash bird's car.huhu.I can feel tat kaijian is unhappy n a bit angry.Anyway,he calm down after a while n start to crazy v us d.We jz went to waterfront garden there have a walk n took picture again.haha.

If interest to all the pictures tat we had took,u can have a look at my facebook profile there.

Thx to all my classmate n hoeng to celebrate for me,kai jian n bird.THANK U VERY MUCH^^