The wrong decision was SPOILED my life......

I'm feel so guilty,disappointed,regret n shame to everything tat i did.

I'm a culprit who full v spots......

I hope everythings will end here n restart again,i'm dirty now!!!!!

I hurted pplS.I planed shit things n critiqued by many of my teammate,i wasted money,i'm x educated well,i'm stupid n blur,i'm poor in knowledge n financially,i'm ugly in mind n appearance,i'm obtuse in movement n thinking,x creativity......Am i still a human being?

I think i'm x oly spoiled my own life bt including all the pplS around me.I would like to take tis chance to APOLOGIZE to them.....

1st is my FAMILY

3rd,My teammate

4th,my PLKN Buddha class teacher

5th,All my frens

6th,The ppls tat hurted by me b4

7th,all the ppls who expect i;m a gud guy......

I did many unreturnable wrongs.

I'm x a gud Human being.

I'm x a gud son.

I'm x a sud boy fren.

I'm x a gud taekwondo player

I'm x a gud student

I'm x a gud frens........

If time can turn back to origin,i'll change!

i wan to b clear,x any spot on me.

I'm dirty nw.............

SORRY TO ALL THE PPLS AROUND ME.SORRY....

What the bull shit intruded my life N spoiled my SIMPLE life?

I'm tired,I'm disappointed,I'm frustrated.....

All things gone bad.Y?

May this all due to my childish n simple minded,poor leadership as well.

Those complains or critiques were made me more mature n improved myself,i need to say thanks to U 1st.

Sry to say tat i'm x purposely to plan sumthing during the class,i have x time to plan out of the training time.That is too sudden to me when i received the msg frm them tat we need to plan a demo in 2 weeks.I just able to plan the 1st part.The drama part n the self defence is need to plan during we face to face n sumore at starting we x sure yet got how many members can join tis demo,we need to change when sum1 is joined in,apply sum suggestion or idea frm the members n even sirs as well.

I stopping u all halfway is hope u all can b alert n focusing,by the way,u all gave wat i expected.

U thought tat i jz wan to showoff my yeng?u knw wat kind of person r me?is it i'm the person who like to showoff?maybe we seldom communicate for long time so tat u forgot how m i d.

I'm forcing myself to b more confident to myself,try to talk infront of teammates,give command,shouting louder,as well as plan the whole set demo,finally i did it,but i think tat is much more to improve to get satisfactory level.

Perhaps I shld not to force myself to get tis responsibility because i x have tis ability n capacity,maybe i'm too selfish.I do by my own purpose,tat is wan to learn sum leadership n creative mind.But the conclusion is i spoiled my feelings,mood n my dignity.

Spoiled our relationship...I'm disappointed n regret.

Anyway,cheer up man!sustain all tis tough n leap over the obstacles ba.

Hope we all can perform well on sport day!

Hoeng,i'm lucky tat u r b there v me to plan tis demo.thanks tat u help me alot n listen to my nagging.Anyway,sustain these all tough for 2 days more,then we can relieve frm it.Gambateh!

2010 year~

It was busy since skul started,almoz every days need to stay back at skul 4 tutorial claz till 3:30pm,after reach home might feel so tired.

Everyday woke up on 4am to do sum revision then go jogging,tat's y during lesson i can feel very sleepy lo,no matter to stop exercise la,bcz i wan train up my six packs.wahahahaha.Sumore need to train up myself to face the MSSD taekwondo tournament!Muz fight well in tis laz MSSD,old d lo,bt some of them said tis year might open for the player who under 18 oly.huhu.Hope i can fight for tis laz MSSD la.

Duno wan to keep on involve in sparing section anot,bcz i had hurted so much,worry tat will suffer in my old age.Anyway,my target is SUKMA!hope tat i can fight in SUKMA,tat is an award to me.

The cuming soon sport day was created sum problems n trouble things to me,bcz we going to have a tkd demonstration on tat day,me n hoeng as seniors among them to guide them was a big trouble to us due to sum of them r x pay 100% attention on training.Tat was tough to train them to perform well,neat, n spirit.bcz we r x enof time to train,a sudden 'surprise' to us.

Gambateh ba!^^

Tdy morning woke up feel a bit moody,myb i think too much,1 of the way can do to get away frm it is abuse myself.hahaha.x get shock ah,the way i abuse myself is exercise hard to make me being exhaust,afterward go sleep.haha.

I like the feel exhaust,it can let me feel tat i'm still in tis world,it was real.haha.

Well.tdy morning I was went to taman botani at taman ehsan.there was another FRIM.actually I x sure tat there is related v FRIM anot.jz saw there so nice scene n attracted by there.

After i arrived there,i start to cycling my honey around tis taman n i try 1 way tat going up to a hill,tat was tired n tough way,bt i pass through it v my determination n the mind to abuse myself.haha. <-my honey

After tat,i was went to a garden tat look like grapes garden 1,i sit alone at there to admire the scene in front of me,listening the birds singing around,hide under shady tat shelter by the crowed of leafs.Tat was very relax n enjoy,in this moment,i can temporary throw away my burden n my trouble...

honey n me.haha=p

There was a big area tat full v the trees n many pounds.many king of fishes can c in pounds,that was inspired u to contribute ur labor to preserve the natural.Natural is our 'MOM'.

Natural protect n care us on primeval,ape-man live in cave,liver bank,hills,all tis provided by the natural.Day by day,ape-man evolution to human being start to b able construct their own house,it sound like human being can abandon the hug frm the natural,bt actually not,we still using the material tat extract frm natural.

Natural act like the great mom to all the living things,bcz it provide every things generously tat living things needed,such as water,air,sunshine,earth.without these all,we cant stay alive until tdy.

Bt human beings like x realize tat we r hurting our 'MOM',a lot of activities tat we had done is hurted our 'MOM'.maybe jz a small n simple things tat we done was hurted our 'MOM' without any realize,such as throw rubbish or even toxicant chemical into liver or sea,using air-con,plastic bags pointless to created a lot of rubbish.

Please wake up!start to contribute urself to preserve natural

Avatar movie~

Well.this wed I was went to Jusco tgv cinema v my buddy for Avatar movie.

First of all,I did not expect alot frm tis movie due to the weird appearance frm the characters in tis movie,I can say here I was made the deeply wrong estimation to tis movie n tis was show tat i'm very superficial.haha.

Anyway,I was very appreciate tat i got tis chance to watched such imposing related nature movie,to feel the grand power of nature n the power of LOVE,CARE,N SPIRIT TO PROTECT THE NATURE.

And 1 more thing tat tis movie had taught me tat we shldn't JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER!

In tis movie,I can deeply feel the amazing n graceful face tat shown frm the heart full v love n cover over the fake human body.The real body n appearance was hide in the faithful n pure heart~We shld find it out to feel the real world but not the fake world tat every1 cover UGLY heart by the mask.

Well,i'm back,lets continue my story ba^^

I'm most admire those 'sakai' lifestyle n their warrior spirit to protect their HOME frm the supreme strong weapon soldiers intruder by their power frm natural

Beside tat,after i had watched tis movie,i'm unanimously agreed as wat my buddy ho eng said to me.He told me tat:"I has x ever watch a movie tat can left me damn deeply image."

I'm fall in this movie,i'm watching tis movie at the same time i imagining i'm b v them in the scene of tis movie.

Illusion....

Recently I'm too free n think too much,feel tat anything I had done n wat I gain jz illusion,tat all x b v me for lifetime.

Happy?Crazy?

After tat is back to emo-ing.I thought tat i'm really happy 1 bt after finiz a whole day n i lying on my bed,i'll start to think,is it real?y gone so fast n nvr cum back again?

Sumtime can b cloz v sumbody bt after sum time tat less contact v each other,then it going to b like stranger,x contact anymore bt need middleman to date us for activity oly get chance to meet each other.

Sumtime I do alot stupid,idiot things to made every1 around me n myself to b happy,although it worked,bt jz tat split of moment oly,bt x last 4 whole life.....

jz emo-ing nw,so wrote down at here,sure u all cant get wat i mean.haha=p

have a nice day for u all.

later wan to b crazy again,playing basketball v my buddies^^

Get Love or Get Hurt?

Wat the incident had been made me scared or feel hopeless to get a new relationship v the girl I like indeed?

I had tried to overcome it,but seems like useless...I duno wat can i do.....

Actually,I had meet a lot of girls tat I crush on them,but x 1 can to be my girl fren,Y?

Hey.dun say tat i'm a gay ah,i'm absolutely a normal guy,bcz i love girl very much.hahaha=p

Every time i getting close v a girl i'll start to think a lot,i'll think tat is it I got the qualification to get pair v her n even I'll stop or pull back my step to get closer v them?At tis point had showed tat i'm do not confident to myself.Yes,I admitted tat I'm x confident to myself actually,tat is cum frm my family problem.Is it an excuse?I duno....sum1 can tell me?

Another problem frm me is 'flower hearted'.I can like few girls in the same time n I'll try to knw them communicate v them n get closer v them to c which 1 is more suitable,care me,sweet n important 4 me.

Actually I found her recently,but I x yet to ask her to be my love 1,mean girl fren la,paiseh to say out tis word.haha.Actually I juz wan a little bit time more to confirm tat whether I'm love her anot,bcz I dun wan any hurt or disappointment appear in half way we love n get sweet v each other.

She is a good girl tat I nvr meet b4,she is caring,thoughtful,willing sacrifice for me,honest to me n alwaz made me laugh at the time I b v her.But sometime she like to emo,like to say sumthing to against me,tat seeing cute.haha.

At here I would like to let her knw,once I choose a girl to be my girlfren,I'll forget other girls tat I had crush on b4 n fully pay my love to her.

Dun be scare tat I'll be 'flower hearted' again^^I promise to u~I'll never hurt u again,actually sumtime I purposely said sumthing tat u x like to hear,i jz wan to test u,c how much u like or love me.hehe=p.Now I know already n I feel touching v all the things u had did for me.

Love you~